til i see you...

i finally cried.. just a little though. maybe i'm still in denial. or maybe it won't be so bad. i know i'd miss the 4 days or more a week spent in 4rcb1.. i could cry because of that. but somehow, the Lord is trying to reassure me that i'd still get the chance to be with these great people. even now, i'm cooking up reasons to visit the ward. haha. truth be told, i only cry because i still want to bond with them and it is my impulsive behavior that wants to do this right this moment.

i'm not sure if it is a false hope i feel rising in my heart that i'd be working here soon. but i know that the Father is kind and loving--He will place me here again unless He knows i can be of even more service elsewhere. and if that happens, then there really is nothing to cry about.

Father, there are so many great people whom i've met recently and i really would love to get to know them better and become real friends with them. please, please, please. also Father, i pray for my other relationships, other areas. please keep the bonds strong. please continue to bless all whom i love.

Father i pray for YFC; i hope more people will just be changed by You and will devote their lives and energies to serving You. father, i pray for my career (nurse/teacher/mission volunteer). i pray for my family and friends and future co-staff *crosses fingers* and even for my soulmate (if that is in your plans). lastly, i pray for my self, my relationship with You. i pray to love You better and really manifest that in my very being :)

you and me

i'm about to eat lunch alone.. it's been a while since i last did this. so, it's just me, affordable food, a nice and roomy booth, and a lot of thoughts :) it'll be nice to do this again. i really missed You and me, after all..just the two of us. Lord, so many things have happened these past two months and if i were to describe them collectively, there would be no more fitting word than "BEAUTIFUL". simple as that. You have turned nursing into something i love so dearly; You have changed me yet again and i am sustained by the promise that things can only get even better because everything happens according to your will. You have turned me into a person who wants to be excellent in serving others and, ultimately, in serving You. i am so blessed to wake up every day and actually look forward to almost everything that You have prepared for me and have asked me to accomplish. i feel like the future is so bright, not just for me, but for everyone because Your great love for us allows it, fosters it. Lord there have been so many hardships, even failures, but right now, as i look back at them, i only see obstacles and how You have turned them into victories yet again.

Father, you know in my heart that although i still aim to accomplish all that you have called me to do, i have found peace in this unexpected place and it is only natural that i am afraid to leap to the next stage and leave this new family i have come to love. "for moving forward is rarely accomplished without a considerable amount of grief". but i trust that one day, the sun will rise again, as it always does. and maybe on that day, i will be with all whom i love. and You will be closest to me :)