Thursday, April 17, 2008
let God and let go
i finished applying for the NLE's a while ago. it took us about 2 hours, technically, though there were many struggles prior to the 2 hours of processing, etc.
while everybody hoped to finish as soon as possible, i was half-wishing that i wouldn't be able to apply, hoping i could go on that trip with my family instead. however, i remembered that a few nights ago, i asked God to make the decision for me because i didn't have the wisdom nor the courage to do so myself. and today, i stood by my faith in Him. i know that i really want to be with my family this summer and now, i am certain that i won't be doing that. but i accept Your will Lord; i believe that it isn't by my own cowardice or misjudgment that i am in this situation, but that it is because of a bigger plan.
sometimes it is extremely difficult to accept Your will and give up our own intentions completely, even if we know that putting out trust in You is the best thing that we could possibly do. and yes, You ask that we love You wholeheartedly, though i also know that You understand that it is initially difficult for us to remove ourselves from that which is not right. so, at first, we crawl. i guess what's important is that in spite of our tears, we still try our best to do Your will. After all, You do not require perfection but intention.
afterwards, our faith in Your will becomes stronger and we come to the realization that a life dedicated to service may seem like a life of sacrifices. indeed. just as Your disciples left their lives behind for You, so we are also called to give up everything and take up our cross.
because the Father loves us so, i believe that there will be another chance for me to be with my family. perhaps my absence, in some bizzaare way, will help them patch things up with each other. i don't know. all i am certain of is this: the Lord knows best. He loves us dearly and will only give us what is ultimately best for us.
while everybody hoped to finish as soon as possible, i was half-wishing that i wouldn't be able to apply, hoping i could go on that trip with my family instead. however, i remembered that a few nights ago, i asked God to make the decision for me because i didn't have the wisdom nor the courage to do so myself. and today, i stood by my faith in Him. i know that i really want to be with my family this summer and now, i am certain that i won't be doing that. but i accept Your will Lord; i believe that it isn't by my own cowardice or misjudgment that i am in this situation, but that it is because of a bigger plan.
sometimes it is extremely difficult to accept Your will and give up our own intentions completely, even if we know that putting out trust in You is the best thing that we could possibly do. and yes, You ask that we love You wholeheartedly, though i also know that You understand that it is initially difficult for us to remove ourselves from that which is not right. so, at first, we crawl. i guess what's important is that in spite of our tears, we still try our best to do Your will. After all, You do not require perfection but intention.
afterwards, our faith in Your will becomes stronger and we come to the realization that a life dedicated to service may seem like a life of sacrifices. indeed. just as Your disciples left their lives behind for You, so we are also called to give up everything and take up our cross.
because the Father loves us so, i believe that there will be another chance for me to be with my family. perhaps my absence, in some bizzaare way, will help them patch things up with each other. i don't know. all i am certain of is this: the Lord knows best. He loves us dearly and will only give us what is ultimately best for us.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Luke 8:16
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