Monday, October 24, 2005

*The Perfect Fabric*


since i'm studying sewing at the Fashion Institute of the Philippines, i needed to buy some materials for my 1st project. i had a simple fabric in mind..just khaki cotton or maybe a little safari print material. something you'd expect to find everyday. at first, i was scared. who wouldn't be? i'd be showing my choice of fabric to some of THE designers in this country. there's shanon pamaong, aries inigo, and john herrera. they would see my fabric. what if they found it tacky? i'd be forever labeled..haunted by that single decision. they would think me unfit to be in their school and would find me so..un-designer. but in the end, i went with my gut and said to myself, "yep. that's the one i want". this all happened just on the way to divisoria, by the way. so, i got there. i figured it'd be easy cause my fabric is simple. in divisoria, they've got all kinds of satin, lame, shantung, chiffon, linens, wool, fabric for beds and curtains and tables. but by the time i had had enough and was starting to receive wickedly amused faces from the vendors, i decided to settle with navy blue twill. the nautical look is in, after all. i could just add gold chains and stuff. but then i thought to myself,
"why? what i wanted was just so simple..nothing fancy..it's not even my idea of a perfect fabric. but no matter how simple it was, i wanted it but didn't find it. there was the high-end stuff..but i was required to get something crisp and easy to sew. i couldn't get that. there were crisp stuff..but they were unfit for a skirt and seemed meant for pillowcases. why not my khaki or safari print cotton?"

then i realized that it's just the same with life. sometimes it's easier to be on the extremes..easier to find luxurious things. we could settle for those but then you realize, it's not really what you need. or how about the impossibly perfect guy who's just not meant for you? you can't put your finger on it, but you know it's just not it. why, oh why, indeed?

or perhaps i was just expecting too much from DV...it might've been the wrong place after all

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